Yesterday was a special evening for me…..more so because I finally came to the end of the first stage of a journey that I started February last year. Yesterday, I finally delivered my 10 th speech from the Competent Communication manual, and the project is about “Inspiring your Audience”.
Now, this project was something that I wanted to do to the best of my ability. It was a project that was supposed to tie in (As much as possible), all the skills the previous projects in the CC manual were supposed to teach a toastmaster. Skills like Vocal Variety, using active voice instead of passive in your speech, and lots of others. To be quite honest, I was nervous, though people, for reasons best known to them, refuse to believe me.
Funny thing was I was quite prepared to do the speech over again, if my evaluator didn’t find it good enough.
Due to some personal issues in my life, I sort of didn’t have so much time for toastmasters. I remember talking to Derm, and he asking me (In January at the officers training) to start writing the speech. I had this habit of writing speeches one week to the presentation day, and using my natural abilities to get it done…but this time I wanted it to be different…
So I went home, and began writing. I had no idea what to write about, or even where to start from. But I do remember that the concept had flashed into my head, when I was on the tram home, after my normal work commute, and it was simply a matter of sculpting the speech and making it beautiful. Now, half way during the speech, I got distracted, or maybe it was writers block…and I stopped, and didn’t pick it up for weeks…
I wonder why that seemed to happen, but then one day, my subconscious or my intuition, began nudging me to finish it. Now, I suspect that deep inside me lies this desire for everything to be perfect. For all variables to just come into sync all at once…but I have learned that it doesn’t all have to come together at once, before you make your move. So I just wrote stuff down to finish the speech.
Now came the hard part..Internalizing the speech. I have a 4 hour minimum commute daily on the train, so I began reading my speech, adding stuff, and rehearsing the delivery style in my mind. I began to think back to all the feedback I had received from evaluators. I knew my weak points were:
- Pauses. I have this tendency of speaking too fast. Yes, I am a native English speaker, but I discovered I had to modulate my voice, because of my accent.
- Smiling too often. Theres a time for everything, and the kind of speech dictates the sort of emotions you want to project. So, I wasn’t going to smile in this speech, because this was serious business. I also was going to project this air of dominance…taking the stage.
- Gestures and body language…I needed to improve that some more.
I also discovered, that I had a subconscious lid on my emotions, because of my culture and where I am from, and I always had this lid…but toastmasters is meant to be like a workshop, where you get to experiment in a supportive environment, and after watching other talented speakers (Corinne is the master of pauses I think
) I decided to take the lid off…
Was I nervous yesterday? Absolutely. I didn’t have the space to rehearse my speech out loud, so I had to say it out loud, on my daily walk, during my lunch break. I must have rehearsed the speech so many times, and I even asked the toastmaster to give me the last slot, because I wasn’t sure if my commute would allow me to get there on time..
But I did get there on time, and was able to do the Sergeant-at arming. Till the time came for the actual speech. I delivered, and people seemed to like it!
Whew, it was over! But wait, our president, Dermot, beckoned me over, and handed over my CC badge on the spot! That was a truly great moment for me, as It sort of marked my passage into the advanced speaking stage of Toastmasters. I had to give a short speech, so I did…luckily, I didn’t thank my Dog or my Cat in the speech
My evaluator came on, later, and told me I had improved, and taken care of almost all the points, I asked him to watch out for. He mentioned I’d made a huge leap since last time, and he had actually predicted what I would do last night, based on my previous speeches, but I had proven him wrong
. Its so lovely when you break out of the box isn’t it? Although, there was one person who seemed to have issues with my accent..I think I might need to get feedback about it, to see if its just one persons opinion
But more to come…after all the evaluations, and table topics (And I think yesterdays TT master has lots of talent and potential) the awards were announced, and I won best speech! Now that was amazing for me (Yeah right) because Utrecht Toastmasters has talented speakers, and to win best speech, means a lot.
So it was club business, and me dashing home to Delft, basking in the euphoria of my win, and becoming the latest CC in Utrecht Toastmasters.
The experience was wonderful, and all..I remember a fellow member asking me if I remembered my first speech, how I was so fast, and all, but I had improved. And back then, I got best speech again…but I was really awful then compared to now…
Theres still a journey ahead of me, more advanced stuff to do, and more opportunities to give back to the club, which made impact in my life.
If theres something I have learned on this journey, its this…do not rush, take your time…its a journey, not a race. As long as you keep getting better with every speech, then thats all that matters.
And to think that for me, it all started with a simple decision, February last year…2009.
I will upload the videos later….seems the WP video uploader has issues!